October Loss

Time flew and we were already in October, month that good things happens and it was a month of a huge loss too.

Since last year when my gpa had the stroke, he was in and out of hospitals sometimes just for a short time and others not that short, it was a time of great suffer for the whole fam and we really try to be strong and even more united, not only for us but specially for him, he need that strength and he take it part from us, great part from his love to my gma and the fear to live her here and also from God.

But this year was a really tough year to him and to all of us too, he was getting weaker, and it seems that he was giving up of the battle, his body was getting tired of so much hospital and so his mind, heart and soul. We try to keep him happy and give him the best quality of life at home or at hospital. Me and my sisters we try to visit him as much as we could and sleep over with him, even if we have to work in the morning after, we all tried to do our best for him, since somehow we know that his last days were about to come.

So by the end of September we went back to the hospital, for what was one of his last time there and in the middle of October he passed away, peacefully. I cannot say that he left us, because he was here for almost 92 years and who are we to hold him here more? I cannot say that was easy for some of us to let him go nor even for himself was that easy, but I believe that was the best thing, he was suffering, was not the gpa/dad/friend that we knew and as much that we would miss him the things we want to the most was see him happy and good.

As he wished in life we did all he wanted, dressed him with the outfit he had chosen, buried him on the vertical cemetery (that does not look as a cemetery at all) and his funeral was not a funeral, was more like a party as I know he would love to, all the family and friends who loved, admired and have had the privilege to live with him, to have him on their lives were there. Mum read some words that she wrote that made us cry and laugh. In fact it was the most beautiful funeral that I have ever been.

So Gpa, rest in peace, you deserve it.
Love